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Ring Of Truth (Part 2)[ Note: If the topic of interracial relations disturbs you, do not read any further, because this story goes well beyond merely describing such things! The 'story' is fictional, as such, but it deals with issues that may upset and disturb people who find interracial sex repellent. If, on the other hand, such a topic isn't upsetting, then please read on! ]Beneath the surface details of daily life in 'The Family' ministry, the most fundamental, guiding idea of all was the sincere and heartfelt recognition by a white male (such as myself) that the ideology of 'White Supremacy', and of the very concept of 'Whiteness' itself, had left in it's wake such a mass of horror and degradation (to both blacks and whites), that something far, far more was needed than merely mouthing the words "I'm sorry!"Brother Dexter had been most explicit about this. "Atonement is LONG, LONG overdue, my brothers and sisters," I remember him saying so many times; and this was true. More was going to be required, much, MUCH more fundamental was the next step for whites to take if the sins of their fathers were to ever begin to be assuaged.In fact, 'The Family' ministry was that next step for myself, and for my wife.She and I both knew that in taking this path, that our lives would be very different from what they had been before; and though she and I would remain as husband and wife, as we had been before joining Brother Dexter's ministry, something significant would be required of us both---and that was this: I would give up any and all future sexual relations with Kağıthane Escort my wife, while Brother Dexter would take over in that particular regard; and, more than that, but my wife would become the vehicle through which Brother Dexter's sperm would create all future c***dren they would have together. The 'Family', therefore, was to be founded, exclusively, on his offspring, not mine, nor any of the other husbands who's wives had pledged their sexual fidelity to Brother Dexter as mine had in joining.Rather than having no sexual outlet ourselves, Brother Dexter had instituted a practice for us to engage in whenever we felt the need for sexual release. It was referred to as 'libation practice.' This has been mentioned before. But I'd like to explain how I feel about it, and how it has been crucial in maintaining my own commitment to Brother Dexter as my spiritual guide and mentor.The first few times I went to do a libation I was extremely nervous, and even a little embarrassed, but Brother Dexter had a way of calming me. He assured me that I had nothing whatsoever to be embarrassed about in performing a libation. He explained that these moments that he and I spent together in private consultation was precisely what God wanted for me, and for him.On the one hand, someone might see libation as a fancier word for masturbation, and though in an outward, physical sense, this is partly true, there was a much deeper, more emotionally intimate aspect at work; and this is where (I'm sure) many people will have trouble understanding. Some will Kağıthane Escort Bayan say that libation practice was nothing more than Brother Dexter's "perversity" and decadence; but I can assure you that this is not at all the case.The reason for making libations, the entire 'point' of it, was in the willing sacrifice of one's own genetic future (that is, in passing on my Caucasian genetic material in the form of further Caucasian off-spring), and assisting the furtherance of more black off-spring, instead (and in this case of Brother Dexter's African genes through the exclusive impregnation of our wives).Each and every time that I made a libation in front of Brother Dexter, I was choosing to make that sacrifice---and willingly so! There was never any sort of coercion on his part. I did them without any feelings of uncertainty (believe it or not). In fact, those libation sessions were deeply enjoyable (to me, and to Brother Dexter). These sessions brought he and I closer as disciple and leader! In those moments there was always such a deep feeling of intimacy, and of connection. That may be difficult for most people to understand, or accept, but it became a joy (to me, and to the other husbands there) to perform libations for Brother Dexter. Each and every time that one of us reached the point of ejaculation, the sight of our sperm spurting out with such force into that golden goblet that was provided for us, was exhilarating in a way I find hard to explain to someone who never knew Brother Dexter.Yes, the physical pleasure of Escort Kağıthane the ejaculation naturally felt wonderful, but emotionally, the physical act of dispensing our sperm in that fashion, and knowing that it was never going to fertilize my wife's eggs, THAT was where the deeper release was experienced the most. At such a moment, I really didn't want my sperm to lead to the making of a baby! I wanted to thwart that; I wanted to show Brother Dexter that only HIS sperm was to lead to a baby with my wife! So, beyond the physical pleasure that accompanies an orgasm, which any man can have, it was only in the privacy of Brother Dexter's study, where we did all our libations, that we reaffirmed (every time) our previous vow of celibate Christian-cuckoldry.Seeing my sperm puddled up at the bottom of that golden goblet was the conclusive 'proof' that I was truly dedicated to the mission of what 'The Family' truly stood for. In the Bible John the Baptist said (of Jesus) that "He must increase, and I must decrease." Brother Dexter often quoted this verse as he explained that, as Caucasian married men, this was our path as well! So, with each and every spurt of my sperm into that goblet, I was, quite literally, 'decreasing' as Brother Dexter and his genes increased---and that, at it's very root, is what 'The Family' is all about. Think of it as atonement; which is what it is. It is the Atonement-Of-All-Atonement as a white, Caucasian male, with a long history of racist crimes against all blacks; and even if I, nor my family, had anything directly to do with the owning of slaves, our whiteness BENEFITTED from it---and now, thank God, I'm doing what I can do to atone for that.I shall continue with libation practice even though Brother Dexter has disappeared, and 'The Family' has broken up and is now s**ttered. The work of atonement must continue.The End