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?I?m going to walk away now unless you?re stupid enough to think that ?she wanted me. I could tell? would hold up in court against a rape charge.?I inwardly winced at even the memory of the harsh words that I had shot at Eric not an hour ago. I was mad and what he was doing, what he wanted me to do with him, was wrong, sure. But to insinuate that he would ever force anyone to have sex with him? I knew him better than that. Didn?t I?I also wasn?t wrong to draw that line. I knew that too. Even if the words were wrong, my decision to tell Eric ?no? wasn?t, and I was proud of myself for that. I was just scared to see what my decision would do to our friendship.I let out a sigh and watched the fog my hot breath created as it hit the cold, February air swirl above me like rolling clouds. It was obviously below freezing outside at that hour, but I couldn?t stay in that place. I was in such a rush, I was lucky I remembered shoes, let alone a jacket, as I ran from my own dorm.I heard a crunch come from above my head as someone approached where I was sprawled out on the frozen, dew-covered grass.?Laine??It was Xander.One word and I knew him instantly, his deep voice rolling over me and warming me better than any jacket.I thought about ignoring him, debated whether that would be easier than dealing with the additional drama that might come from whatever conversation I would be avoiding, but I knew it wouldn?t help. Instead, I turned my head so I could see him from where I lay without actually having to get up.?Hey, kid. 'Sup???We?re really gonna get into this now? What are you doing out here in this weather? Trying to freeze yourself to the grass???I wanted to see the stars, but they?re shy. I thought you weren?t gonna stumble home until tomorrow.??Stumble?? Never mind. What do you mean ?shy???I looked back up to the sky where only a faint smattering of stars shown overhead and pointed.?Ah??After a minute, I felt a tug at one of my hands and looked to see Xander attempting to pull me to my feet.?What are you doing?? I groaned.?I?m trying to get you to stand up, obviously,? he said, still tugging at my limp body as I offered no assistance in his attempts to move me.?Why???Don?t you want to know where the stars are hiding?? he asked with a crook of his eyebrow.I looked at him again and nodded.?Then get up you lazy sack of potatoes. I?m not gonna carry you.?I reached up to him as if I did, in fact, expect him to carry me, but Xander just rolled his eyes and began to walk away.I scrambled after him after I detached myself from where I had actually begun to freeze to the grass. ?Where are we going?? I asked.?The parking lot,? he answered shortly.?Why?? I ask. ?You can?t see the stars any better there. I checked.??The parking lot isn?t where the stars are. It?s where my truck is.??You can?t drive.?Xander turned to yell in my face then. ?God Laine! I?m eighteen, not ten! I can drive! It?s all legal and everything!!??I didn?t mean you?re too young to drive. I meant that you can?t drive if you?ve been drinking.? It came out as a whisper and I hated how weak my voice sounded just because he raised his voice at me.He didn?t apologize, but a look of regret did cross his face. Then he blinked a few times and looked away from me stepping back before he responded. ?Then it?s a good thing I?m sober. Isn?t it??We remained silent for the rest of the walk and for a few minutes as Xander drove us further and further away from the school and town.Finally, the silence became too istanbul travesti much. I had to say something. ?You?re taking me to the middle of nowhere to kill me. Aren?t you??He didn?t laugh, but I saw a small smile cross his face. ?Now why would you ask that? Obviously, I would say ?no? whether I was going to kill you and bury you in an unmarked grave or not. Right? Saying ?yes? would either be a lie or make me the worse murderer ever.?I just looked at him with suspicion as if I was trying to figure out whether that was a confession or not, and that actually made him laugh.Talking was a little easier after that, but it was only a few more minutes until he stopped and parked in the middle of a dirt road between an empty field and what looked like an abandoned barn. I couldn?t tell for sure though since it was so damn dark outside.?I knew it,? I said turning to him. ?You are gonna kill me. Probably after you pull a shovel out of your back seat and force me to dig my own grave.?He kept his face straight before he did, in fact, reach being him into the back seat to grab something. ?I guess you?ll have to get out of the car to find out. Won?t you??I only hesitated a minute before I hopped down from the truck and froze where I stood as I finally got a proper look at the sky.The open field surrounded by trees left a big space open to the sky while managing to block out all the human-made light pollution from the city I knew was less than a mile away. The result was a view of the stars so breathtaking that I didn?t know you could see something so spectacular without driving a hundred miles away from any civilization big enough to dare call itself a city. A countless number of tiny dots lit the sky and I did nothing but marvel at the sight until something warm wrapped around my shoulders from behind.?Close your mouth before you catch flies,? Xander whispered in my ear. I hadn?t even noticed that he had joined me until he had spoken.?Where?? How??? I stuttered, attempting to put into words the questions flitting through my mind, but I kept getting distracted by the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.?I got lost one night trying to find this warehouse everyone says throws awesome parties every Friday night. I never found that warehouse. I don?t even believe it exists anymore, but I found this place, and it?s easily ten times better than any party.?I was surprised I was paying attention to him enough to register his words, but I laughed. ?The warehouse? Seriously???What?? He asks confused.?The warehouse is a stupid joke upperclassmen play on freshman or transfer students. It doesn?t exist. Even the address is fake.??Is not!? Xander argued defensively. ?I found the street and everything?I laughed again. ?Yes. The street exists, but the street number doesn?t belong to a building on that street and ends in a dead end with no street lights, so it?s hell to make a U-turn on. It?s a school-wide hazing ritual that ?cool people? do to listen to the pathetic stories of the gullible freshman getting stuck, lost, or breaking down in an attempt to find this party central that doesn?t actually exist.??You fell for it too!? Xander exclaims. ?Didn?t you? Little, freshman Delaine wanted to go to a cool college party, so she got all dressed up only to end up in a ditch on that very same dead-end road!?I spun around until I was face to face with a smiling Xander just a few inches away from me. ?Everyone falls for it. Freshmen are led to believe istanbul travesti that anyone that says it doesn?t exist just isn?t cool enough to have gotten the address. I was obviously cooler than everyone that told me I was being gullible.?I smiled at the amused look on Xander?s face, and at the memory of my own stupidity.?God, you?re beautiful? he whispered, reaching out to tuck some loose hairs over my ear. Then he leaned in slowly, giving me plenty of time to pull away if I wanted.I didn?t though. For that moment I wanted him to kiss me. It had been so long since I had been kissed, really kissed. I?m not talking about when I?m drunk and being taken advantage of or when my mouth was assaulted by someone I didn?t want to be kissing.Right then, I wanted him to kiss me and I didn?t question it.He waited another breath before finally closing the distance between us and pressing a light kiss to my lips. It was hesitant and simple and soft and beautiful and so unlike the Xander I knew. The Xander from Miami who was all hot and sexy Alfa male, but knew how to laugh and have fun. The Xander I had been treating like a yo-yo lately was far more serious and aggressive if just as hot and alfa. This kiss was none of those things, and for all of those reasons, it felt like our first kiss ever.It also wasn?t very long until he backed up again, a look of sadness in his eyes.?I can?t believe I fucked this up? he murmured so quietly I couldn?t tell if I was meant to hear it at all.It came back to me then. The lie that turned a summer of fun into what felt like a giant scam. Worse yet, it turned my sweet, fun-loving Xander into a liar.Wait? my Xander? When did that happen??I?d go back and change it if I could.??Change the lie or change the fact that I found out?? I asked. I had to know.?The lie? he answered without hesitation. ?It was stupid. I shouldn?t have done it.??Then why did you???Honestly???No? I deadpanned. ?Please, lie to me some more and see how that goes.?He winced but answered without comment on my sarcasm. ?I was stupid and thought that you wouldn?t be interested in me if I was just eighteen. I thought it would be one night, maybe two, then I?d never see you again and it wouldn?t matter.??You thought I?d have turned you down because if I knew how old you were???Don?t pretend it wouldn?t have been a little weird for you. I hear you with Julia. You two call anyone under twenty years old ?babies.??I winced because he was right. We did say that. A lot. I just didn?t think Xander ever overheard, and really, I never thought of Xander as an eighteen-year-old. He was just Xander.?You still shouldn?t have lied to me. Or you should have come clean earlier and not let me walk into that room the day you moved in and get blindsided by you and the truth all at once.?He placed his hands on either side of my face and bent until our foreheads touched. ?I?m so sorry, baby. If I?d have known it was gonna be you??He kissed me again. He applied more pressure this time, but it was still hesitant. It was me that pulled away that time.?I get that we can?t change the past, but no more lies. Okay? I need to be able to trust you.?He looked me straight in the eyes and said ?No more lies. I promise.? Then he kissed me again.When he remained tentative, I was the one to deepen the kiss, letting my tongue dart out to run along the seam of his lips before disappearing back into my mouth.My little move seemed to embolden him because he growled istanbul travesti against my lips before he bit down and used my moan as an opportunity to slip his own tongue between my lips. I reveled in the sensation as his tongue explored my mouth and I returned the favor in kind as soon as the greedy bastard let me.After we spent some time biting and licking each other?s lips, he bent me down and grabbed my ass hefting me into the air. My legs wrapped around his waist instinctively and I moaned at the feel of his hard length pressing deliciously into my pussy.The blanket that he had apparently wrapped around my shoulders earlier as I first took in the view of the stars fell from my shoulders, but I didn?t miss it even as the cold air wrapped around me in its place. Xander was keeping we warm enough that I barely noticed.He walked us somewhere until he stopped to readjust me and I sat in one of his hands. He then used his other hand to open the back of his truck bed before depositing me on the seat he created.The kiss broke as I scooted back to allow him to join me in the bed of his truck.?I?ll bet you take all the girls here to fuck,? I half-joked.?Nope.??They?re too wimpy to withstand the cold? I?ll bet they need a bed to have sex," I teased.?Nope.??No beds??Xander didn?t look at me as he walked to where he picked me up to grab the blanket off the ground where it had fallen. ?No other girls.?I laughed incredulously, but he just looked at me with a serious look on his face.?You?re kidding. You must be," I accused. ?Girls follow you around like little kids chase the ice cream man. What do you mean ?no other girls????This ice cream man only stops for one girl.?I flopped back in the bed of the truck, taking that in. Just me? He must be joking? or lying. I?ve been playing with him for weeks, getting him riled up, letting him get me off, then leaving him hanging time and time again. No way was he not blowing off steam with someone else.?You don?t believe me.? It wasn?t an accusation. It was just a statement, though I could tell he wasn?t happy about it.?How can I? Look at yourself!?He smirked and I had to throw my arm over my eyes to shield myself from the sexy. ?Thank you.?The truck rocked under me as he hopped up to join me.?How are you gonna see the stars if you stay like that??I peek around my arm to find him hovering over me. He sat back until his back hit the cab of the truck then he crooked a finger at me in invitation.I sat up and crawled over until I settled between his spread legs. Then he grabbed my hips and twisted me until I sat between his legs the both of us wrapped in the blanket.We sat like that for a while pointing out constellations and planets we recognized. Then we just talked. That was new for us. Even in Miami, we rarely stopped fucking long enough to talk, and when we did, it was all small talk about the then and there. Nothing serious, nothing personal.Just then, a small speck of light flitted across the sky for just a second and I exclaimed at seeing a shooting star and flung my arm out to point. Graceful person that I was, I somehow managed to hit Xander in the process.If the impact with my elbow wasn?t enough to tell me that, his groan of pain did.I whirled around to see how much damage I had inflicted when I hit him in the face with my ponytail.He caught my hair mid swish and growled, ?Stop moving.??I?m sorry? I whispered. He wasn?t visibly bleeding and he wasn?t holding anything in pain so I just waited patiently until he decided that he was safe enough to let me go.But he didn?t let go. He just held my hair as he held my gaze. I actually watched as something carnal filled his eyes.Two minutes ago we were talking like pals and now I was wondering if he wanted to eat me since he was looking at me like that.