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Cockatoo Part 4Cockatoo Part 4Return From BangkokIt was late afternoon by the time my flight left Bangkok and dusk beganto fall about halfway back to Koh Samui. Lights from the fishing boatsin the Gulf of Thailand began to glitter like tiny jewels in thegathering darkness. I could make out the dark shape of Koh Tao, and Ishivered at the memory of what had happened down there only a few weeksago. How close I had come to death in the cold, dark water, and how,given a second chance at life, I was determined to make the most of it.I spent half the flight worrying if I had made the right decision to buyout Kritsada, and the other half trying to come up with a plan of whatto say to Alex and Areeya when I arrived in Samui. I managed to convincemyself I was doing the right thing, but by the time the seat belt signscame on, I still had no idea how I would share the news with them that Ihad become their new business partner. I hoped Areeya would come roundto it, but I had no idea about how Alex would react. Kritsada had agreedto let me share the news of my investment in their business with themmyself, and I hoped he would keep his word. He had also given me acouple of days cooling off period in case I changed my mind. I didn?tintend to, but it was a generous gesture from him.It was dark by the time we landed at Samui's one runway airport, and Ijoined a throng of excited tourists as we headed towards the smallterminal. I had texted Alex my flight details and she had replied thatthey would be there at the airport to meet me. Looking around thearrivals area I couldn?t see anyone waiting for me, when someone jumpedonto my back from behind, wrapping their arms around my shoulders andlegs around my waist.?Surprise! Guess who?? I could smell Alex?s favourite scent as she nuzzled my neck from behind.I staggered a little and I heard Areeya say, ?Alex, that's enough, youwill kill the poor boy.?I heard Alex giggle, ?No, that comes later, in bed.? I turned to face Areeya with Alex still clinging like a monkey to myback. Areeya stood there smiling. ?Sawasdee Ka, James.?I grinned broadly, ?Sawasdee Khap, Areeya. Where?s Alex? Is she heresomewhere??That got me a punch in the ribs and Alex dropped from my back, spun meround, wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me.?Mmm, that?s nice,? I said as she finally broke the kiss and steppedback to look at me.Areeya stepped forward and also kissed me, albeit less extravagantlythan Alex. ?She's been impossible all day, James. She hasn't been able to sit stillfor a moment and she made us come out here far too early.?Alex gave Areeya a light punch on the arm. ?Nag, nag, nag. Let's getgoing, I?m starving and I need a drink.? She put one arm through mine and the other through Areeya?s and pulledus both over to the car park. Her mention of food reminded me that otherthan a quick sandwich at the airport before my return flight I had noteaten all day. I expected us to get a taxi, but Alex led us across thecar park towards a large Mercedes 4x4. I hadn't seen this before and Ilooked quizzically at Areeya.?My father?s. He lets us borrow it for special occasions, I guess thisqualifies. Alex, should I drive?? ?Noooo, I like driving this big boy.? Areeya looked doubtful, but shrugged her shoulders and went straight tothe rear seat and I climbed in next to Alex. I heard Areeya buckle herseat belt and something told me I should do the same. I had quietlyrejoiced at the thought of avoiding the dubious pleasures of a Thaitaxi, but that was only until Alex put the car into gear and pulledaway. She floored the accelerator and I was pushed back into my seat. Iheard Areeya suck in her breath and I realised why she had claimed theback seat. ?Alex, can you slow down a little, please?? Areeya beseeched her fromthe back.?What? Oh, don?t be such a baby.? Alex said, turning round to look atAreeya and nearly rear ending a car in front. She stabbed the brakes andI was glad I had already fastened the seat belt.Alex wasn't only a bad driver, she was a fast bad driver. She wouldaccelerate fiercely and then stand on the brake. I grabbed the doorhandle and held on for dear life. Alex didn't stop talking all the way,although I can't remember a word she said, as I was trying to anticipatewhen we might next get killed. Thai drivers are pretty wild, but Alexwas up there with the best, or worst, of them. She would overtake on blind corners whilst looking at me or turninground to talk to Areeya, who I thought had gone very pale. Alex wasoblivious to the effect her driving was having on her passengers, and Ipromised myself to fight, if necessary, for the back seat next time.That is, if there were to be another time. It didn't seem likely at onepoint as she overtook a truck which was already overtaking a motorbikeand then had to swerve sharply to avoid a car coming the other way.By some miracle we arrived back at Koh Samui Blue in one piece, and aswe climbed out of the car I looked at Areeya and she shuddered. Alex bounced in front of me, grabbed both my hands, ?Well, did you tellKritsada? What did he say? Was he angry? Will he do it? Tell me, tellme, please? I can?t wait.? I frowned and paused, ?Well, he said?., no, I think we should wait untilwe've had a drink at least.??You bastard, James, I will be really nice to you tonight if you tell menow.??How nice?? I said, as innocently as I could manage.Alex punched me on the arm and said, ?I won?t hurt you as much as I wasgoing to, that's how nice I will be.?Areeya, smiling, said, ?James, if you don't tell her now, she won?tstop, I promise you.?I grinned and said, ?Yes, I told him and he accepted your decision. No,I don?t think he was angry and I am sure he will stick to his word.'Before I got the last words out there were shrieks from both of them andthey pulled me in for a big threeway hug. We were all laughing by now and I managed to say, ?What about thatdrink?? We decided to head off to Cockatoo 2 first and then come back forsomething to eat. We walked down the strip to the bar, still arm in arm,and I couldn't stop smiling at the happiness my news had brought. Icould only hope the other news I was holding back would be as wellreceived.Pau was working behind the bar and she gave me a big smile and a wave aswe sat down. She quickly served us a Leo beer each and we clinkedbottles in celebration. Areeya said she had to sort out a couple ofthings in the bar and she would catch up with us back at the restaurant.I think it was just to give Alex and myself some time together and Iloved her for the gesture.Alex turned to look at me, smiled and said, ?Thank you. I think it'sonly just beginning to sink in. It will take a while for me to fullyappreciate what you've done for me.? 'Alex, I'm sure you'll find a way to show your gratitude,' 'Do you have anything particular in mind, bad boy?''I've written down a list of things. Now, where did I put it?' I frownedand patted my pockets.That earned me a punch on the arm. 'Mmm, comedian. How about this for a starter?' Alex leant forward and kissed me on the lips as her hand slipped belowthe bar and began massaging the front of my trousers. I began to respondand she kissed me harder, her other hand snaking behind my head andpulling me closer into the kiss.She suddenly broke off the kiss, looked me in the eyes and said, ?Fuckthis, I want you now.?She slid off the bar stool, grabbed my hand and pulled me to the back ofthe bar and through the curtain into where the short time rooms were.Behind the curtain lay a corridor with rooms on both sides. There was alight outside each room and two were glowing red, which I took to meanthey were occupied. Alex opened one of the unlit doors and dragged meinside. It was very basic, a bed and a small cupboard by the side. Sheflicked a switch and a light lit the room in a pale red glow. I openedmy mouth to say something but Alex shoved me hard in the chest and Ifell backwards onto the bed. She was wearing a loose sun dress which, in one movement, she pulled offover her head. Seemingly, almost simultaneously, she unhooked her braand dropped it on the floor, tugged off her panties and stood therenaked, her blonde hair tumbling over her shoulders with her cock erectand pointing straight at me. She put her hands up and ran her fingersthrough her hair and shook it loose; a gesture that gets my juicesrunning every time. Her breasts were beautiful in the dim red light andmy heart did a somersault. She slid onto the bed and straddled my chest,her cock right in front of my mouth. I looked up and saw her smilingdown at me, and as she edged forwards her cock bounced against my lips.My tongue flicked out and brushed the tip of her cock before slidingunderneath the glistening head. I lightly touched the underneath with mytongue and I heard Alex gasp. Sucking the head into my mouth andswirling my tongue around it, I felt her move her hips as her cock sliddeeper and deeper into my mouth. Reaching behind her she unzipped my shorts and began to play with mycock which was already hard and sensitive to her touch. I felt herfingers slide up and down my shaft, and she began to rotate them aroundthe head of my cock and I felt myself harden even more. I took her asdeep as I could into my mouth and I almost gagged but managed to controlmy reflex. ?For God's sake, I need you to fuck me now, James.'She wiggled backwards and her cock slid out of my mouth. I was sorry tofeel it go, but mine was now was begging for attention. Alex leaned overto the bedside cupboard pulled open the drawer, opened a bottle, andsmiling down at me, she lubed herself and my cock. I was desperate nowto get inside her and she locked her eyes with me, raised her hips,paused a moment, and then impaled herself on my cock. I grunted as herweight drove her down onto me and she arched her back and began to rockup and down. My hips started to come up to meet her downward thrusts and we began tofuck each other fast and hard. I reached up to her breasts and twistedher nipples in my fingers. She moaned and her eyes blazed and shestarted to move up and down even faster. I was pummelling into her bythis time and I could feel myself swelling as the tempo kept gettingfaster and faster. I was sweating now and grunting as she drove down onto me. I was soturned on by this time, I knew I couldn't hold myself back for long.Alex was grinding herself down onto me and moving her hips from side toto side which built even more pressure on my cock. I raised my hips tomeet her downward thrusts and she threw her head back.'Fuuuuuuuuuuck,' she screamed as we hammered into each other.?I?m cumming,? I shouted, as I felt my cock spasm, and I pumped my cuminto her.?Me too,? she gasped and long strings of cum erupted from her cock ontomy chest and face. We both kept moving for a while before Alex flopped forwards onto mychest and I put my arms around her and drew her close to me. I lickedthe corner of my mouth where some of her cum had landed, kissed her andpushed it into her mouth.She smiled, ?Yummy, tastes nice.?She rose a fraction, licked the remainder of the cum from my face beforepushing it into my mouth. I savoured the taste and then swallowed.?Mmm,? I said, ?I think you must have had Pad Thai for lunch.?Alex looked astonished before realising I was grinning.?b**st,? she said and twisted my nipple hard. ?Oww.??Serves you right, you monster. I told you I would hurt you tonight.?I laughed and said, ?That was the best sex I?ve had since...ever.??Mmm,? she kissed me then whispered, ?The best is yet to come. Come on.let's get cleaned up. There's a shower out the back.?She slid off me and my softening cock slipped out of her. Pulling me up,she dragged my shorts down and off and yanked my t-shirt over my headbefore dragging me out of the door and down the corridor. My Englishnesskicked in and I covered my groin with my hand.?God, you are such a baby, nobody cares about your little thing.?I must have pouted, because she laughed and said, ?Well, maybe I do, alittle bit.?She leant down and gave my cock a kiss and said, ?Come on, I need ashower.?Pushing open a door at the end of the corridor, she shoved me inside.It was a large shower room, open to the night sky, with four showerheads along one wall, and I was startled to see we weren't alone. Two ofthe bar girls wear already in there, presumably cleaning themselves upafter their short time sessions. I started to back out of the room butAlex pushed me back in. ?Don't be silly, it's May and Joy. You?ve seen them before and, trustme, they?ve seen much worse than you.?True, I had seen them before, but then they hadn't been naked, andneither had I.May was one of the girls at the bar and Joy one of the ladyboys there.They both giggled at the sight of me and Alex but otherwise didn't batan eyelid and calmly went on showering. Alex pushed me under a showerhead and grabbed a bottle of gel. She squeezed some into her hand andbegan to wash me. There is nothing like being washed by someone else andAlex's hands and fingers were soft and gentle as the warm water from theshower seemed to ease away all the stress and tension from the past fewdays. Alex stood under the shower with me and we kissed, the water runningdown us both. She broke away and moved behind me to wash my back and Icaught sight of Joy and May. My eyes widened as I saw May on her kneesin front of Joy giving her an energetic blow job. Joy?s back was againstthe shower wall, her eyes closed and her hands around May?s head. Istood transfixed watching the two of them.Alex was also watching and she squeezed my cock, ?It?s simply their wayto relax. Finding someone to be tender with.? There was a faraway note in her voice and I thought she was thinkingback to her own days in the Bangkok bars. I nodded, almost scared tospeak, as I watched the scene in front of me. Two beautiful brownbodies locked with each other. May was using her hand on Joy?s cock aswell as her mouth and Joy didn't look too far from climaxing.Alex squeezed again and whispered in my ear, ?Hot, isn't it? Want tojoin in??I didn't speak but Alex took my hand and led me across to Joy and May.It was if I was in a dream and powerless to resist. May was stillworking on Joy?s cock as we reached them and I saw Joy?s eyes open andshe smiled at me as she saw me there. Alex pushed down on my shoulders and I dropped to my knees next to May.She stopped, looked up at Alex who nodded and May turned to kiss me andher tongue snaked into my mouth. I responded and we kissed, our tonguesintertwined. May broke the kiss and moved slightly to one side so thatJoy?s cock was now between the two of us. I felt Alex gently move myhead forwards and my nose bumped into Joy?s cock. I heard her giggle andlooked up to see she was smiling in encouragement. May reached down andtook my cock in her hand and began to stroke it. Joy wiggled her hips sothat her cock slid across my lips and I kissed the side closest to me.May kissed the other side and our tongues slid across the head and wekissed again, this time with Joy?s cock in between. Alex again moved my head forward so that Joy?s cock pressed on my lips.I opened them and her small but very erect member slid into my mouth.Compared to Alex, it almost felt like I had a thumb inside my mouth, andas my tongue began to flick at the head, I heard Joy moan above me. Hercock might have been small but it was hard as iron. and Joy began tomove her hips, edging it in and out of my mouth.I felt a movement to my side and I saw from the corner of my eye thatAlex had taken May?s place and was watching me as I sucked on Joy?scock. She motioned me to stop and she took over slipping Joy gently intoher mouth whilst her hand sought out my cock which was by now hardagain.I felt pressure on my shoulder and I turned to find May had moved to myside, and her glistening, naked pussy was right in front of my eyes. Shemoved in closer and I buried my face in her and my tongue got to work.She tasted very sweet as I lapped up and down her slit and I could feelher grinding into my face as she got more and more excited. I stole aglance upwards and May was now kissing Joy as Alex worked on her cock.I heard Joy squeak, ?I cumming.?Alex grabbed me away from May just as Joy climaxed, her cum sprayingacross my face and I rocked back on my heels. Alex immediately moved myhead back to May?s pussy and I continued to tongue her as hard as Icould. I felt her tense up and her hands went round my head as sheground her groin into my face. Alex was now also standing and grinningdown at me with Joy?s mouth wrapped around her cock. I looked down tosee May on her knees in front of me and she looked up, smiled and tookme into her mouth. My knees almost gave way as I felt her tongue curlaround my shaft and begin to suck. I was already on the edge and it didnot take more than a few seconds of May?s sucking to get me to my secondclimax of the evening, and I came right into May?s mouth.I looked across to Alex and she had her eyes closed, and I saw herstagger as she came into Joy?s mouth. May and Joy kept sucking for awhile and then, almost as if at a signal, they stood up and first Joyand then May kissed me, pushing cum from their mouths into mine. I hadlost all sense of time and place by this time and I flopped back againstthe wall, spent and overwhelmed by what had just happened.Alex slid next to me and said, ?Told you the best was yet to come.?We finally made it back to the restaurant where Areeya was chatting tosome of the customers. Areeya excused herself and came across to whereAlex and I had sat down at one of the tables.'You two took your time.' 'Something came up,' said Alex. I stifled a laugh and Areeya looked fromme to Alex.'I can imagine what it might have been.''Sorry, Areeya, it was my fault.' I offered.'Hmm, somehow I doubt that, James.''Anyway,' Alex jumped in, 'let's eat and James can tell us what happenedwith your father.'Whilst we waited for the food to arrive, I told them about the meetingwith Kritsada and how going there in person had the right decision. Herespected me for coming to talk to him face to face, and that he hadn'tbeen surprised at Alex's decision. Alex wanted to know if he had beenupset by her decision. I told her there was no way I could tell; he hadnot shown any reaction at all. She seemed a little put out by that, butI think it was just her pride at work. I asked them, 'Have either of you spoken to Kritsada since I met himtoday?'Areeya looked at Alex who shook her head, and Areeya said, 'No, why?''That's good, he said he would let me share the news with you first.'Something in my voice must have alerted Alex because she went verystill, and fixed her eyes on mine.'James, is there something you're holding back?'Areeya caught the tone in Alex's voice and turned to stare at me too.Two pairs of eyes were now focused in on me like laser beams.Here goes nothing, I thought.'There was something else that Kritsada and I discussed.'Alex rocked back in her chair, her eyes glinting now as a falcon's mustwhen it sights its prey.'Fuck, what have you done, James?' 'Look, it's nothing bad, and really it's very good, at least I?m sure itis.' I was starting to lose control of this and would have to get it back ontrack. Areeya was looking worried and Alex was relentless.'James, tell us now, what have you done?''I have been thinking for a while that I need to make more of acontribution here. I can't scrounge off the two of you forever. Ihaven't paid for anything since I've been here and if I am to stay here,I need to make much more of a contribution.'Areeya jumped in, 'James, it's not a problem, you are going to make acontribution. You're going to update our IT for us and then there's thenew club, you're really going to help there.''I know, Areeya, and both of you have been so generous to me so far, butI need something more for myself. I need to make a commitment. I guess Imean to say I need to have more of a personal stake in my new life.'Alex?s eyes were still locked on mine. ?Yeah, but what does that have todo with Kritsada?? I took a deep breath and said, ?I have bought Kritsada out of his sharein the club. I'm your new partner in the business.?There was a stunned silence. For a moment neither of them looked as ifthey had fully understood what I had said.?I needed to make a commitment to my new life and this is it. I askedKritsada if I could buy his share in the club. We agreed a price andshook hands on the deal.?Areeya was the first to speak, ?And my father agreed to this???Oh yes. In fact, he said there was something else that he could use themoney for right now.??How much did you agree to pay my father???The $100,000 you told me he had staked you plus something extra tocompensate him. He seemed satisfied with the arrangement.?Alex spoke for the first time, ?Where?s the money coming from for this??Her tone was calm and measured. I doubted that was a good sign.?From the sale of my house in the UK, and some savings I have built up.I have enough to cover the capital sum and some leftover to pay my wayaround here.?Areeya jumped in, ?Are you sure you know what you're doing, James? Myfather can afford to lose the money if this all goes wrong, but canyou???Areeya, that's more of an incentive for me to make sure this doesn't gowrong. I need something to make my life here worthwhile. This is a riskI am willing to take.?Areeya was about to say something, but Alex held her hand up to stopher. ?How much extra did you pay Kritsada???10% on top as compensation.??Yes, that sounds like my father.? Areeya looked upset. ?He will alwaystry to milk the goat twice.??What else?? Alex was still speaking calmly, usually a sign she wasangry.?Nothing, why??This wasn't the time, I thought, to mention my agreement to work forKritsada as a consultant. ?Kritsada always wants something else, you know that as well as we do.? ?No, nothing else, just the 10% on top, that?s all.?Alex narrowed her eyes at my answer. I don't think she believed me for amoment, but she didn?t follow it up.Instead, she said, ?So you didn?t think it was important enough to askus before you went ahead and did this??I could tell from the tone of her voice, she was now boiling inside.This is what she was mad about.?What would you have said, if I had asked??She shrugged her shoulders, ?We?ll never know now, will we? You decidedto take that option away from us.?Areeya looked from Alex to me.?I apologise for not consulting you before I did it. I was so keen tobecome part of all this, I acted without thinking it through, I'm sorry.Is it a big problem for you to have me instead of Kritsada as apartner??Areeya turned to look at Alex, ?Alex, does it really matter where themoney comes from? Not having my father involved does have it'sadvantages.??No, Areeya, you're right, it doesn?t matter where the money comes from.After all, it does mean we can exert some real pressure on our businesspartner if we need to.? There was an edge to those words, but at that moment, Areeya proposed atoast to our new partnership, and we touched glasses and drank to ourfuture success.As Alex lifted her glass to her lips, I saw the look in her eyes and Iknew I was going to pay a heavy price at some point for what I had done.We finished dinner in the restaurant, then walked upstairs to the flatand sat out on the terrace, drinking and talking about what our nextsteps should be in the plan to launch the new club. We threw aroundideas for possible names, some better than others, and we provisionallysettled on Cockatoo Cabaret as a tie in with the bar.I also mentioned that when I had googled Koh Samui Blue, I discoveredthere were barely any hits, and most of them were press reportsreferring to the pirate attack. There was no website, Facebook page,Twitter account, or Instagram for Koh Samui Blue or Cockatoo, and Isuggested I add this to my IT stuff, as it was easy to set up and getrunning. Alex and Areeya liked the idea and happily agreed that I shouldget on with it as soon as possible.When It came to setting up the club, Alex wanted me to see what wasalready on the island and to see what other places in Thailand, such as Pattaya or Phuket had offer as well as Bangkok. Areeya had seen postersfor Miss Tiffany?s Universe competition which was to be held in a coupleof weeks in Pattaya. Miss Tiffany?s is Thailand?s biggest localTransgender beauty competition and has produced several winners of theMiss International Queen competition. We agreed it would be too good anopportunity to miss. We wouldn't ever be able to afford to attract thesecompetitors to be in the show, but I could at least see what the best ofthe best. Something had changed in Alex since I told her about the deal I had madewith Kritsada. She had become distant and distracted and I hoped that agood night's sleep would improve her mood. It had been a long day forme, and the effects of the flight to Bangkok together with theactivities at Cockatoo had caught up with me, and I felt my eyelidsgetting heavy. ?I'm sorry, I have to go to bed or I'm going to fall asleep right here.?I announced.Areeya said she was going to sleep on the boat tonight as Sam was flyingin for a few days holiday in the morning. I had completely forgottenabout that, so I kissed Areeya goodnight and turned to Alex who said,?You go ahead, I?ll be there in a moment.?I went inside and could see Alex talking animatedly with Areeya for sometime, until Areeya threw her hands in the air and walked off down thestairs. Alex pulled her knees up against her chest, wrapped her armsaround them and stared out into the darkness. I thought it would bebetter to give her some time to herself, so I undressed, fell onto thebed and was asleep in seconds.I woke sometime during the night, and I stretched out my arm, but Alexwasn't there. I sat up and could see a strip of light shining under theclosed kitchen door, and heard what I thought was sobbing. I got out ofbed and walked across to the kitchen door, where I could clearly hearsobbing through the door. I slowly eased it open, and there was Alex,sitting on the floor, with her arms around her knees, crying her eyesout. I knelt down in front of her, reached out and touched her arm, whenshe noticed me for the first time.?Alex, what's the matter? Why are you crying??She looked at me and her eyes were rimmed with red from crying.?Because I'm a fucking screw up, that's why.?I put my arms around her.?No you're not, you're wonderful. Why do you think you're a screw up??She bit her lip and turned her head away.?Come on, come back to bed with me, please??I stood up and took her hand and gently pulled her to her feet. Iwrapped my arms around her and hugged her tight to me. She was stillcrying but not as much as before. ?Come on, let's go to bed and talk there.?With my arms still around her, I walked her back out to the bedroomwhere I picked her up and put her down on the bed. I lay down besideher, put my arm around her shoulder and held her tight. She had nowstopped crying, and I stroked her hair hoping it would soothe her. Shepulled her head back and bit her lip as she looked away from me. Ibrushed a lock of hair away from her face as she sniffed, and I smiledas she had to wipe her nose.?Don't you dare smile, I must look fucking horrible,? she said.?What's the matter? Why were you crying??She looked away and said, ?Because I'm a cow and I'm scared.??You're not a cow, and why are you scared???I'm an ungrateful cow because you do the most wonderful thing anyonecould ever do for me, and then I fuck it up by getting mad at you forwhat you did with Kritsada. I can't get anything right.?I hugged her as tightly as I could and said, ?Listen, it wasn't you thatscrewed up, it was me. I shouldn't have just barged ahead and agreed itwith Kritsada without talking to you first. I was so scared that youmight say no, I didn't want to take any chances. I wanted it so badly, Iwas only thinking of myself. It wasn't your fault you reacted that way.It would have been more difficult not to.??Areeya didn?t, she took it in her stride.?I thought for a minute, ?Areeya has less to lose than you, she has thefamily business to fall back on, but you don't, this is everything foryou. I think Kritsada realised I was being a fool, not telling either ofyou, because he offered me a couple of days to say no if I wanted. He'ssmarter than I thought.?She looked at me and I knew what she was going to say, ?Do you want toback out???No, not a chance. Cross my heart and hope to die in a cellar full ofsnakes.?She giggled, ?Where on earth did that come from???What we used to say as k**s.?She sniffed, ?I don't want you to back out either.?I leant forward and kissed her. ?So, what are you scared of??She bit her lip again, ?I think I'm losing Areeya to Sam.? Thatexplained Areeya?s arm waving outside on the terrace.I hugged her again, ?Baby, I don't think you will ever lose Areeya, sheloves you in a way that nobody could ever replace. I promise you sheisn't going to leave you for Sam. Not going to happen. Hell will freezeover before that would come to pass.??Maybe.? She said, searching my face to see if she could see the truthsomewhere there.?I promise you, Areeya loves you and Sam is not going to change that,period.?She sniffed again and smiled.?Come on, let's try to get some sleep. Everything will look better inthe morning, I promise.?She leant forward and kissed me, ?I love you, Mr James.?I said, ?You sound like Pao.??She loves you too, you know that.?I kissed her back and said, ?Well, I love you sweetheart.?I'm not sure she heard me as she was already asleep.I awoke sometime after the sun had risen and it looked like yet anotherbeautiful day was on it's way. Alex wasn't in the bed and I yawned andstretched and called out her name.?I?m over here.? I turned over and she was sitting at the desk, workingon her computer in her robe, glasses perched on the end of her nose.?You know I love that look, come over here and give me a kiss.? She grinned and walked across and sat on the edge of the bed. I reachedout and linked my fingers with hers and said, ?How are you thismorning???Better. I?m sorry for last night. I had a bad moment. Thank you forbeing there.?I kissed our interlocked fingers, ?Least I could do as I was the causeof some of it.?She bent down and kissed me and I tried to grab her.?Steady, tiger. I have some work to do, so you'll have to keep yourdirty thoughts to yourself for a bit.??I'm sure I can help myself out,? I said.She looked at me over the top of her glasses, ?If you so much as touchyour cock by yourself, I will have to punish you severely.??Yes ma?am.? I said.?That's right, and don't you forget it.? She laughed and then disappeared off to the shower, leaving me to makecoffee and breakfast. I sat outside on the terrace, enjoying the morningsun and the chug, chug sound of the fishing boats as they headed out tosea. Alex came out onto the terrace, dressed in her best business suit,gave me a kiss and said, ?We?re having dinner with Areeya and Samtonight, don't forget.??You OK with that?? I asked.?Yeah, I was tired and emotional last night. I?ll be fine. I?ll see youlater, I have to go to see our accountant. Should I tell him about thenew business partner???If you mean by that, do I still want to do it, yes, I do, and I won'tbe backing out. I guess we need to see a lawyer too???Second meeting today, I?ll set up a session for us all to do thepaperwork.?With that she gathered up her computer and disappeared down the stairs.Areeya, I knew, was up at the airport to collect Sam; so I planned aswim, followed by some work on my ideas for social media, then lunchsomewhere, and a massage later to iron out some of the kinks in my backbefore dinner with three ağrı rus escort bayan lovely people. I smiled as I thought back to afew months ago, when I was flogging away at my dull job in rain soakedCambridgeshire. How much my life had changed in such a short time; Imight as well now be in a different universe.When I went to see Kritsada I had just enough time to dash into SiamParagon, Bangkok's flashiest shopping mall, to buy a iPhone, iPad and aMacBook Air, so I now felt fully equipped again. After the swim, I spenta few hours setting up accounts and getting the basics done for thewebsite. It would need some good photography and I would ask Areeya ifshe knew someone locally. Lunch was Tom Yam Goong and a beer, afterwhich I popped into Cockatoo. Pao wasn't there yet, so I treated myselfto a massage in one of the many massage shops along the strip. A Thaimassage is one of the wonders of the world and this one was noexception. By the time I got back to the apartment, Alex, Areeya and Samwere already there, sitting on the terrace, late afternoon beers inhand.Sam jumped up and gave me a big hug, and Alex fetched me a beer. We wereplanning to eat downstairs, and then head off to check out what washappening at Cockatoo. Areeya told us that they had caught the Mamasanat Cockatoo skimming off the top, had fired her today, and Pao was nowin charge of the bar. I was delighted for her, not only was I very fondof Pao, but she was also a great girl, and I knew she would do the jobperfectly. Over dinner I asked Sam what was happening at my old company.?Big changes, James. After you resigned there was a lot of bickering andbackstabbing. The Board had a big clear out and a lot of people havealready gone. They?ve confirmed me as your replacement and it's all goneso well it might be made a permanent role looking after South EastAsia.??Congratulations, Sam, that's great news.??Thanks, James, that's lovely coming from you.?How did I feel about that? I was pleased for Sam, as she had done agreat job picking up my role during my convalescence and she deservedit. I did feel an unexpected pang of jealousy; after all, I had done thegroundwork in Bangkok, and she was reaping the benefit. If it hadn?tbeen for the trouble stirred up by that journalist, that might have beenmy job. On the other hand, that had given me the chance to move on withmy life in a completely different direction. Would I have preferred thejob to my new life? No contest; I had the better of the two options.Sometimes, you have to play out the hand you're dealt. I wondered howAlex would feel about Sam being out here full time, but Sam's job mightnot get made permanent, so it might never happen.?I have some news of my own, Sam. I?ve decided to stay out here, there'snothing for me back in the UK, and I feel this is where I want to be.?Sam smiled broadly, ?Well done, I?m pleased for you, but I'm not reallysurprised. It wouldn't happen to have anything to do with a certain olduniversity friend, I suppose??I laughed, ?Maybe. OK, not maybe. Certainly.?We clinked glasses and she said, ?I?m delighted for you. What are yougoing to do out here???I've agreed with Areeya and Alex to overhaul their business processes,put some technology in place to help the business, and to set up somesocial media for them.?She frowned, ?That sounds good, but it won't keep you busy for long,will it???No,? I said, and thought I may as well tell her the rest. ?I'm going totake a stake in the business here as well, setting up the new venture.??Oh, that sounds great. What's the new venture??Before I could reply, Areeya said, ?We should be getting over toCockatoo, check out what's happening tonight. Maybe go for a late nightswim afterwards??Alex was all for it, ?That's a great idea, I have to sort a few thingsout at the restaurant, but I?ll catch you up at Cockatoo.?Sam looked doubtful and said, ?I haven't got any swimming things.?I said, ?Ah, don't be so English. You won't need to wear anything, Sam.?Areeya and Alex burst out laughing, and Alex shouted, ?You?ve changedyour tune since last time.?Sam looked puzzled, and I went very red. Leaving Alex at the restaurant, the three of us walked down to Cockatoo.Areeya and Sam were arm in arm, which left me feeling like the sparewheel on a bicycle. The bar was heaving when we got there, the soundsystem was on full blast and people spilling out into the street. Areeyawent to get some beers as everyone of the girls was busy, eitherserving, or with customers. Through the crowd I spotted Joy playing pool with a guy who fancied himself as a player. He wasn't bad, but she was just toying with him, let him win on the last ball, and he punched the air. Joy saw me watching and gave me a little smile as he put his arm around her shoulder. She whispered something in his ear, and he grinned and nodded. Joy took his hand and led him through the curtain at the back of the bar. I spotted Pao and pushed through the crowd towards her. She saw me, gavea little squeal and pulled me into a big hug. ?Hey, congratulations, Areeya told me you're in charge, I'm delighted.?I had to shout to make myself heard and a broad smile broke out acrossher face. ?Thank you, Mr James, I very happy too.? A group of young Australians pushed between us and Pao got surroundedand serenaded with a chorus of Waltzing Matilda. I eventually foundAreeya and Sam outside on the pavement, where at least we could heareach other talk. Areeya handed me a beer and we chatted happily for awhile. It gave me a chance to watch Areeya and Sam together, and theyseemed very happy with each other. All those signs of mutual attractionwere there; the brush of fingers on arms, the way their bodies mirroredeach other, heads close to each other, and the sudden little smiles. WasAlex right about Areeya? I had wondered about what Areeya really feltabout me arriving on the scene. Was this not the same thing, just theother way round? Sam excused herself to go to the toilet and Pao, bless her, sent us outanother round of beers. As I drank, I turned to look down the strip, andmy heart skipped a beat. Alex suddenly appeared through a throng ofpeople further down the road, and it was as if I were seeing her for thefirst time. Her hair was tied up in a loose bun, and she was wearing ashort, strapless white dress that accentuated her colouring and herfigure. She stopped to speak to one of the girls outside another bar,and they laughed together at something Alex had said. She lookedradiant, and I thanked whatever God was up there, that we had met andthat she loved me. ?She still has that effect on me,? whispered Areeya in my ear as she sawme watching Alex. I turned to her and smiled, ?Was it that obvious???You looked as if you had been hit by a thunderbolt.'I nodded, ?You should tell her you still feel that way, Areeya.?Areeya sighed, ?I try to, James. I know she is frightened that I willleave her, but I won't do that.?I kissed her and said, ?You're very special, Areeya.? ?Hey, no kissing until I say so,? Alex arrived and punched us both onthe arm. ?Place looks busy tonight, should we go somewhere else??Sam came back at that moment and we talked about where to go. The otherbars would be just as busy, and none of us felt like going out of town. Areeya said, ?Why don't we go to the boat? We can sit out on the sternwith drinks, and then go for a swim. If it gets too late we can allsleep on the boat.?Sam and Alex both agreed quickly and it left only me who hadn't saidanything. Alex, sensing my reluctance, put her arm through mine andsaid, ?Don't worry, it will be fine, nothing will happen.? I thoughtthat I couldn't avoid the boat forever, and at least this time it wouldbe tied up. ?OK,? I said, ?Come on, let's go.?It was a clear, still night and, although the clinging heat of the dayhad subsided, it was still humid on the strip, and the walk out alongthe pier to the boat brought a little relief. The sky was so clear thateven a short way from the lights of the strip, the stars could be seenclearly, with a full moon tracing it?s silver path across the water. Iwalked arm in arm with Alex, and she rested her head on my shoulder asAreeya and Sam walked ahead, hand in hand.?Do you think I?m being stupid?? she said softly.?In general, you mean?? That got me a soft punch.?No, you idiot, about Areeya.??It isn't about being stupid. Look, we all have things to worry about,but Areeya still loves you and that?s a fact. The two of them are happytogether, but I don't see either of them thinking this is a permanentthing. Put yourself in Areeya?s shoes. How did she feel when I arrived???Mmm, I hate it when you play the mature one. You're right, all I couldthink of was lusting after your hot body.?I gave her a punch this time. ?I guess that makes me a thoughtless, selfish cow, then???No, you?re none of those. We all have fears and desperately try to keepthem hidden away, but sometimes we can't do that, and they come out andscare us to death, but It doesn't make them true.?She squeezed me her arm, ?You are a lovely bloke, did you know that???Yeah, all my girlfriends tell me that, just before they dump me.??Liar, you told me you only had one girlfriend, and you dumped her.?I laughed, ?Sad git, aren't I???Not any more,? she said, and pulled me into a long kiss.Areeya shouted back to us, ?Can't you two wait until we get on theboat??We giggled, and walked quicker to catch up with the other two. Areeyahad left Cockatoo 3 moored to a buoy and as we reached the other two,Areeya was readying the small tender dinghy we would use to get out tothe boat. She expertly fired up the small outboard, and we all climbedin, and were soon stepping up onto the stern of Cockatoo 3. Areeya put on the lights and Alex went to the galley to organise thedrinks. Sam was obviously impressed with the boat, as she couldn't stopsaying ?Wow? as she looked around. Areeya put on some soft jazz, andafter Alex brought out beers, we sat around the table and clinked thebottles. Sam glanced at me and said, ?Isn't this where it all happened?The attack, I mean.?Alex reached out for my hand.?Yes,? I said, ?right here is where it happened. I thought I would feelbad about coming back here, but I don't. It was traumatic alright, butluckily, it turned out OK.?Areeya said, ?Luck had nothing to do with it, James. If it wasn't foryou and Alex, none of us would be here right now.?I said, ?Enough about that, let's get the party started. Who?s for aswim??Areeya and Alex immediately stood up and started to undress and Ifollowed suit, slipping off my t-shirt and dropping my shorts andboxers. I was now used to seeing their naked bodies, but Sam just satthere with her mouth wide open as we threw our clothes into the corner.?Come on, Sam.? Areeya said as she moved towards the stern ladder. Samshrugged and said, ?Oh hell, why not,? stood up and pulled her dressover her head. She had a beautifully toned body and small firm breasts.She wasn't wearing a bra, but tried to keep her knickers on. Areeyasaid, ?Oh no, all off.? We all watched as Sam went bright pink, turned away and peeled off herknickers. ?Stop staring,? she said, her hands over her groin.We all laughed and she went bright red this time. Areeya switched onlights that were fitted just below the waterline, and they flooded thearea under the hull with bright light. Alex was the first one into thewater, followed by me and Sam. Areeya said, ?Wait, I?ll get the masks.?She pulled four masks from the locker and threw two to me for Alex andmyself, then jumped in and passed one to Sam. It was my first timeunderwater in the dark, and in the illumination from the lights it was arevelation. The light attracted the fish and we were soon swimmingamongst schools of fish and their colours looked sharper, more brilliantand more defined in the lights. Even our own bodies looked different;skin shimmered and glinted and flashed as we swam lazily around. Webumped into each other and someone grabbed my backside and a handbrushed against my cock. I swam straight into someone and found my maskright up against a pussy. It looked bizarrely distorted through theglass of the mask. Eventually, even in this water, we began to feel cold, and Areeyasignalled for us to get back to the boat. I followed Sam up the ladderand I realised that it had been her pussy I had swum into. She seemed tohave left her inhibitions in the water as she dried herself on one ofthe towels that Alex had fetched from the cabins. More beers wereproduced and everyone sat down wearing their towels in some form oranother. Alex came over and sat on my lap and Sam did the same withAreeya. Alex wrapped her arms around me and kissed me, her tongueflicking into my mouth and I instinctively responded. She began tonibble my ear and I could see over her shoulder that Sam and Areeya werealso kissing, their hands all over each other.Alex began to kiss and lick my neck and I closed my eyes as I felt mycock begin to respond. Alex slipped off my lap and I opened my eyes,just as she dropped her towel and then pulled mine away as well. Shestood naked in front of me, her body glistening in the lights, movinggently to the rhythm of the music and I was totally entranced. Shepushed her hands through her hair and then down to cup her breasts,slowly kneading them until I could see her nipples growing hard. Shelifted up her left breast and bent her head forward to flick the nipplewith her tongue, and I think I moaned as she repeated the movement withher right breast.I could just see Areeya on the other side of the boat and she seemed bemirroring Alex?s movements in front of Sam, wide eyed as she watchedAreeya. Areeyas long dark hair fell down almost to her waist and she wasmoving with the grace and fluidity of the dancer she was. Almost as ifthere had been a signal, Alex and Areeya turned to face each other andthen embraced, their hands snaking around each other?s back. I wasrooted to the spot as I watched them lean into each other and began tokiss, tongues and lips mashing together. Areeya?s darker bodycontrasting and complementing Alex?s lighter colour. I could not have moved if I had wanted to, I was so transfixed. I sawSam sliding forward on her seat and her hand slipped down to her groin,her legs now apart and her fingers began to stroke her pussy lips. Ifelt my own hand descend to my erect cock and I began to gently strokemyself as I watched. They were still kissing and I saw Areeya?s handsgrip Alex?s bum and squeeze the cheeks hard as Alex did the same to her.Sam was now almost humping her hand and I was stroking myself harder andharder. Alex?s hands moved between her and Areeya, and I knew she wouldbe stroking Areeya?s pussy, whose own hands would be on Alex?s cock. The two of them suddenly broke their embrace and turned back to face Samand me. They fell to their knees in front of us and Alex knocked my handaway from my cock, opened her lips and took me deep into her mouth. Imoaned as I felt her tongue licking the head and she began to move herhead back and forth as her hand circled the base of my cock and began tostroke me as well. I could see Areeya on her knees in front of Sam, herface buried in Sam?s pussy who was moaning loudly as Areeya licked andtongued her. I was breathing hard now and I knew I couldn't hold out forlong. Sam was now writhing as Areeya went hard at her, her head buriedin between Sam?s legs. I heard Sam moaning louder as she began to climaxand that sound brought me close to the edge. I shouted ?I?m cumming,?just at the moment Sam went over the edge and she threw her head backand screamed ?Fuuuuuuck.? I slumped back onto the seat, and Alex stood up and sat on my lap againhugging me tight. ?Did you enjoy that, baby?? i nodded, not trusting my voice. She bounced up and down on my lap, ?So did I. That was awesome.?I tried to talk, but my voice was thick and I had to clear my throatbefore speaking, ?You two didn't plan that did you???Areeya,? Alex yelled across the boat, ?James wants to know if weplanned that.? Areeya, who was sitting on Sam's lap, with her armswrapped around Sam?s neck, laughed, ?No, James, but you know there arepeople who finish each other's sentences, well, we do the same kind ofthing with sex.?Alex kissed me again and whispered, Take me to bed, bad boy, it's myturn.?She grabbed my hand and pulled me up and through the cabin door into oneof the staterooms where we fell onto the bed, arms around each other aswe lay together, kissing and stroking slowly and sensuously. Alex threwher leg over my thigh and I could feel her cock getting hard as theintensity of our kissing grew. She began to rub her cock along my thigh,and I slid my fingers around it and stroked it slowly. She moaned as wekissed and I rolled over onto my back, allowing Alex to pull herself ontop of me, her cock now fully erect, and rubbing between my thighs. ?Wait,? she said, and jumped off the bed. She went outside and came backin with something behind her back. ?Will you do something for me?? ?What?? ?I promise it won't hurt, in fact, I think you?ll enjoy it.??What is it, for God?s sake???Wear these for me tonight.?She brought her hand from behind her back and dangling from one fingerwere the knickers she had worn earlier. They were white and lacey andlooked very small.?I don't know ?? ?Please, it would make me very happy, baby.??Do I have to?? I began to whine.?Remember you promised ??Shit, I thought she would have forgotten that promise, but I thought ifI wore them now she would let me off it.?Ohhh, OK, but just this once, right??She grinned, ?Whatever you say, baby. Stand up for me, will you.?I stood up by the side of the bed and she moved in front of me.?I'll hold them open, so you can put your foot into them.? She held whatappeared to be a tiny wisp of lace just at my knee level and I put myhand on her shoulder for balance and then placed my foot into one side. ?That's good, baby, now the other one.?I did as she asked and she gently and slowly pulled them up my legs andover my thighs. I could feel the softness of the lace sliding over myskin and I gave a little shiver at the sensation. Alex noticed and said,?Feels nice doesn't it? It will feel even better when we get your legsshaved.?I ignored that because it just wasn't going to happen, and she pausedwith the knickers halfway up my thighs, looked at me and said, ?Getready, baby, here comes the good bit.? With that she pulled them right up so that they cupped my cock and balls and slid silkily over my bum. It was as if a little explosion hadgone off in my brain as I felt them tighten around me. I had notexpected that they would feel quite as sensuous on my skin as they did.I let out a little ?Oh? as Alex ran her fingers around the waistband andtouched the tip of my cock which had subsided by now. ?They feel so sexy, don't they?? She whispered, her lips gently brushingmy ear. I felt her hand slide down my body and her fingers slip over mylace covered bum, sending another shiver through me. Her other handfound a nipple and she began to roll it between her fingers. She wasplaying me like a musical instrument, coaxing and stroking me with herfingers. The sensations were exquisite, my system in overdrive from Alexkissing and licking my neck, her hands on my bum and my nipples. Mycock, which had become limp, now awoke and began to grow, pushingagainst the soft lace of the knickers, and my knees began to shake.?Doesn't this feel so good, baby? My knickers are so soft and they fityou so well. They were around my cock a little while ago, and now youknow what they feel like when I?m wearing them.? She was purring into my ear as her hands played their way across mybody. She moved slightly so that she was in front of me and I felt herhands move to my shoulders and press down so that I sank to my knees infront of her, and I felt the lace stretch across my bum. Her cock wasnow fully erect and she placed her hands behind my head and pulled metowards it. ?Open up baby, come to mama.?Her cock tapped against my lips and as I opened them her cock slid intomy mouth. I licked greedily around the head and Alex?s hands kept me inplace as I took more of her cock deeper into my mouth. ?Use your hand, baby.?I put my hand on the base of her cock and my fingers wrapped around andbegan to stroke it as I licked and sucked her. I could hear Alex makinglittle sounds as she became more excited and her hips began to move,moving her cock in and out of my eager lips. My tongue was lappingbeneath the head, where it is most sensitive. Her hips began to movefaster and i knew she was close to the edge. I slowed down a little totry to prolong the climax, but with a small cry, she came into my mouth,cum flooding past my lips and tongue. I choked a little but keptswallowing and and took it all down. Alex stopped thrusting and with alittle sigh she pulled out of my mouth. I looked up at her and she wassmiling down at me, a glow of pleasure on her face.I thought I heard her whisper, ?Good girl,? and then, more clearly shesaid, ?I mean, that was great, baby, thank you.?She pulled me to my feet and we embraced and kissed before tumbling ontothe bed. We lay there arms and legs entwined, kissing and stroking eachother until we both had calmed down. sleep finally overtook us, but notbefore Alex, stroking my lace covered bum one more time said, ?Why wouldyou want to wear boxers, when you could wear these??We awoke to the motion of the boat rocking gently. The wind had pickedup overnight and the sky was darkening, a summer storm on the way. Alexwent out to pick up our clothes and claimed that she couldn't find myunderpants. She said, ?Keep my knickers as you've been wearing them allnight.??No.?She pouted, ?Don't you like them? You seemed to last night.?It was true that I had enjoyed the feel of wearing them last night, andas it didn't feel so silly wearing them now, I shrugged, said, ?Whynot?? and pulled my shorts up over them.Alex smiled and pulled her dress over her head.?Aren't you going to wear any?? I asked.?Well I can't, silly, as you're wearing mine and I don't have any morewith me. I?ll just go commando.?Before I could say anything else, she pushed me out onto the deck whereSam and Areeya were having breakfast. They were both looking tired and Icould only imagine what they had been up to last night. We joined themfor coffee before Areeya got the tender ready to take us back to thepier. Alex went in first as Areeya held the rope tight for me to climbin. As I went to get in, I slipped and Areeya grabbed the back of myshorts to stop me falling into the water. I felt her hand slip insidethe waistband as she held me, and I knew she would easily feel the laceknickers. I prayed she wouldn't say anything.?Mmm, nice underwear, James, must look cute on you.?I blushed deep red and jumped into the tender. Alex had heard whatAreeya said and she was grinning at me all the way back to the pier. Weparted there, Areeya returning to the boat and Alex and I walked back tothe apartment. I immediately took off my shorts and Alex's knickers. ?Oh, why not leave them on, you look so cute.? said Alex.?No thank you, I think I'll go back to my boxers.?Alex said something under breath, and I thought it sounded like, ?Notfor long.?I wanted to get on with the analysis for the business and Alex was onduty in the restaurant today. I worked through the day on the businessanalysis for the IT support and managed to produce a rough draft of whatwe could do to improve the business. Frankly, anything would beat thepieces of paper they had at the moment. Around 7 o'clock my phone rangand it turned out to be Pao, calling from Cockatoo. ?Mr James. There is man here asking questions about you. He is not nice.He want to know all about you, offer money to the girls for information.They not say anything and tell me about him. I thought you should knowhe asking questions.??Pao, thank you, do you know where he's from???We think Engrish, Mr James. He not very nice.??Ok, is he still there???Yes, he getting drunk.??Is Areeya there?'?She gone to market, I think.??Ok Pao, you've done well, thank you. Can you try to keep him there?I?ll be straight down.??OK, Mr James.?I sat back and wondered who the hell this could be? I didn't like theidea of someone nosing around and I knew Pao and the girls wouldn't sayanything, but I wanted to see this guy for myself. As I walked down tothe bar I called Alex, but it went to voicemail, so I left her a messageand carried on to Cockatoo. It was just getting busy as I arrived andPao saw me and came over.?He over there, Mr James. In the corner with Nin, she keep him here.??Thanks, Pao. You can call me James, you know, it's OK.??OK, Mr James.?Pao got me a beer and I sat at the bar to get a look at this guy who wasso interested in me. Nin was a very pretty ladyboy and she was playingConnect 4 with a tall, skinny and very pale man, with a bad haircut anda loud beach shirt and shorts. He was also wearing socks with sandals,which made him English for sure. Nin was easily beating him, whichwasn't exactly a surprise, and he looked as if he was already drunk. Ithought he looked familiar but I couldn't work out where I might haveseen him before. Pao was still next to me, ?What's he been asking about, Pao? Do youknow???Girls say he asking about you, where you from, what you do and aboutMiss Alex. Do you want me to throw him out, Mr James??I had seen Pao deal with a few rowdy customers before and I had no doubtshe would be able to deal with this guy.?No, Pao, not yet, anyway. Let me see what I can find out, first.?I went over and sat with my beer at the next table to Nin and the guy,caught his eye and nodded to him. He was pretty far gone and tried tonod back but his head kept going and I thought he would topple over.?Hey? I said to him, ?You OK, mate?? ?Yeah,? he said, ?bit drunk, I think. Had too many of these.? he wavedhis empty bottle of Leo about.?Can I buy a fellow Brit another one?? I asked.?Ahh, good man, nice to talk to Brit, can't understand these people,cluck, cluck, cluck all the time, horrible chatter.?I wanted to kick him out on his arse, but not until I knew who he was.?I'll get us another beer then.??Very kind of ya, pal, yeah, cheers.? Nin, who I knew spoke good English, and had understood everything thisidiot was saying, looked at me and I waggled the bottle and two fingers.She got the message and disappeared to get us two beers. She broughtthem back and looked at me to see if she should stay but I shook my headat her.I put the beer down on the table. ?Here you go, mate. This one?s on me.??Good on ya, sport. Where ya from, then?? We clinked the bottles together and he took a huge gulp.?I'm from London, Tottenham. On holiday here, and you???Poxy Midlands, me. Wish I could get to London, much better thanBirmingham.??Maybe, Brum?s OK, good Indian food there, anyway.??Hate all that foreign shit, me. Steak an? chips, that's more like it.??If you don't like foreign food, why are you here??He hiccupped twice and then looked around to see if anyone else waslistening, and leant forward towards me, almost falling over again. ?Here for work, sort of undercover.??Wow,? I said, ?you're police, then??He shook his head, ?Nah, journalist. Work for papers.?Go carefully here, James, I thought,?Oh, big story is it? d**gs, or people smuggling then, or pirates?? Fora moment I thought I?d gone too far by mentioning pirates. ?He looked at me, almost cross eyed by now, ?Pirates, yes, s?right.Looking for a bloke here, s?posed to be hero, saved a couple of tartsfrom the pirates.?I felt my fists clench, and only with a conscious effort did I manage to relax them.?So, that's the story, then? Sounds alright, I guess.?He laughed, or at least, a filthy noise that could have been a laugh,gurgled out of his throat.?He?s no fucking hero, shacked up here with some tranny, pretends she'swhiter than white.? My fists started to clench again as he hiccupped and finished his beer.Nin materialised at his elbow with another Leo and the guy took it andbelched. She looked at him as if he was something on the bottom of hershoe, and turned to me to see if I wanted her to stay. I shook my head,winked at her and she spun on her heel and went back to watching us fromthe bar along with Pao. ?She was doing the dirty in Bangkok for years, mixed up with gangstersand everythin?.?Trying desperately to stay calm I said, 'So you got the story then, I guess.??Nearly pal, just need to get pictures of them together and then I cansell the story, big bucks.??Where are they, then? Should be easy enough, I suppose.?I thought he had sussed me because a cunning look passed across hisface, but he may have just been suppressing another belch. Had herecognised me? I knew most of the photos of me taken after the attackweren?t that clear, and I had stayed away from cameras until it all dieddown. There had been a few stolen facebook pictures used, but they wereso old nobody would have recognised me now.?Whad you say your name was?? he asked, his eyes glazing.?Robert, what's yours??He tried to focus his eyes and said, ?Tony, nice to meet ya Bob.??Likewise, mate.??Got to go,? he staggered but managed to get up, ?Thanks for the beer,pal, see ya round.?He meandered out of the bar, knocking into tables on his way out. Ihurried over to the bar where Pao and Nin were watching him stumble out.?Can we get someone to follow him? Find out where he's staying???I go?, Nin said, and disappeared onto the strip after Tony. He wouldn'tbe difficult to follow.I asked Pao to let me know as soon as Nin found out where he wasstaying, and I called both Alex and Areeya to meet me back at theapartment as soon as they could. By the time I got back to Koh SamuiBlue, Alex was already there, and Areeya arrived a few minutes later.She had been on the boat with Sam and had left her there to come back tothe apartment.We sat on the terrace with a drink, and I gave them a full rundown on myencounter with Tony. At first, Alex was very agitated and then quiet andcalm as I told the story. By now, I realised the more controlled sheseemed on the outside, the more she would be seething inside. Areeya,equally aware of her body language, was throwing anxious glances at Alexas she became absolutely still, a sure sign an explosion was on it'sway.I finished and Areeya was the first to speak. ?James, do you think thisis the journalist who was chasing us a few weeks ago???Yes, I think it is, Areeya. He?s from the same place, he's using thesame kind of words about us, and I'm sure it?s the same guy.?Alex stood up and said, ?I'm going to fucking kill him, now, the littleshit.?She turned to go down the stairs from the apartment and both Areeya andI shouted ?No!? Areeya was closer to her than me and tried to grab her,but Alex was too fast and sprinted down the stairs. Areeya and I bothran after her but she had already disappeared into the darkness. I knewshe didn't know where to find the guy, so I guessed she would go firstto Cockatoo. Areeya was trying to call Alex on her mobile but it wentstraight to voicemail. My phone rang, and I hit the answer button.?Alex, where are you???It not Miss Alex, it me, Pao, Mr James.??Pao,? I yelled, ?Is Alex there???No, but Nin followed man and we know where he live.??Great, Pao, but don't tell Alex until I get there, make sure of that.??Yes, but Nin also saw him meet someone, Mr James.?I was having difficulty keeping up with Areeya as I was talking to Pao.?Who was it, Pao???Mr James, I'm so sorry.??Pao, why are you sorry? Who was it???It was Miss Sam.? I stopped dead in my tracks, ?What did you say, Pao???Miss Sam, she meet the man. The horrible man. Nin follow him and sawthem ağrı rus escort talking.??Was Nin sure it was Sam???Yes, Mr James, she say she saw them clearly outside hotel he staying.?I couldn't believe it. What the hell would Sam be doing with this creep?Areeya was now well ahead of me on the way to Cockatoo, I didn't wanther to hear this until I go there. ?Pao, please don't say anything to Alex or Areeya until I get there. Oh,and tell Nin not to say anything either.?This was getting weird. This sleazeball journalist turns up, then, ifwhat Nin and Pao say is true, Sam meets with him. It didn't make anysense.I started to run after Areeya, but she had a head start and was noslouch. I got to Cockatoo and looked around for Alex or Areeya, butcouldn't see either of them. Pao and Nin were inside the bar and I madestraight for them. ?Have you seen Alex or Areeya?? I asked them.?No seen Miss Alex. Miss Areeya just left, she say she might know whereMiss Alex gone.??She didn't say where that was???No, Mr James, We say nothing to Miss Areeya.?This, at least, gave me the chance to talk to Nin.?Nin, please tell me what you saw.?Nin looked nervous, probably wondering if she was going to be in troubleover this.?Nin, tell me what you saw, I promise you won't get into trouble.?Pao said something in Thai to Nin. She still looked anxious, but startedto speak, ?I followed the man. He went very slow and was easy tofollow.? Nin?s English was very good for a Thai bargirl. ?He was, howyou say, stagger???Staggering?? ?Yes, he was staggering along road and sat down two times at bars. Heended up at hotel down by beach.?Pao jumped in, ?Cheap hotel, very bad.??Nin continued, ?He sat in the hotel lobby. I was going to come backwhen I saw lady come up to him and start talking. I couldn't see who itwas from outside, so I sneak in and then see it was Miss Sam.??Nin, are you absolutely sure, it was Sam?? I asked.Nin looked nervously over at Pao, who nodded to her.?Yes, Mr James, I sure. I seen miss Sam several times here with MissAreeya. I know it was her.??OK, Nin, I believe you. Did you hear what they said???I could not get too close, Miss Sam know me I think. Miss Sam wasangry, she was talking loudly at man, but I could not hear.??Nin, thank you. Don't worry, you?re not in trouble at all.?I tried to make sense of all this. I believed Nin. After all, she knewSam well enough, and I had no doubt that she had seen her. But what didit mean? It was obvious that Sam knew Tony somehow. I was certain, hewas the journalist who had raked up the story in the UK about Alex andmyself after the pirate attack. I had been told by a friend in the UKthat someone inside the company was leaking information about us to themedia. It had started about the time Sam arrived in Thailand, and it wasshe who told me what the journalist was publishing. Was I beingparanoid? It did all seem to fit, but why would Sam be doing this? Wasit to get me out of the way, so she could get my job? That would take analmost psychopathic level of cunning and manipulation on Sam?s part. Whywas she so angry with Tony when Nin had watched them. I wished Nin hadbeen able to hear what they were saying.While all this was flashing through my mind, I still had no inklingwhere Alex or Areeya had got to. Neither did I know where Sam was. Fuck,this was getting crazy, I had to track somebody, anybody, down. I calledAreeya and the phone went to voicemail, as did my next call to Alex. Ididn't have Sam's number so I was back to square one. Somehow I had topull some of these strands together to make sense of this. I had no ideawhere Alex and Areeya might be, but I guessed Sam might be back on theboat. She and Areeya had been staying aboard since Sam arrived so Ithought I would try there first. Telling Pao and Nin yet again not to tell Alex or Areeya about Sam, Iheaded off to the boat. Nin and Pao looked uneasy, but i thought theywould do as I asked, unless they were confronted by Alex or Areeya,which I thought unlikely. As I walked down the pier I tried to call Alexand Areeya again, but both calls went straight to voicemail, so I askedthem to call me as soon as they could. I was also trying to work outwhat to say to Sam if she was there. Should I charge straight in and askher outright what was going on, or try to find out something moresubtly. After all, there was the chance this was a misunderstanding or acoincidence. My instinct told me it wasn't, but I couldn't rule it outcompletely. Areeya had moored Cockatoo stern on to the pier, so I didn'thave any problems about getting to it. The interior lights were showingand as I reached the stern, I called out, ?Sam, are you onboard?? I heard Sam?s voice from the cabin, ?Hey, James, yes I?m here, come onboard.?I slipped off my shoes and walked across to the stern. Sam came out ofthe cabin and smiled broadly at me.?Hi, James, what's up???Hey, Sam, I'm trying to find Alex and Areeya, they seem to havevanished. I thought they might be on board.??No, they're not here, have you called them???Yes, but it's going straight to voicemail.??Ah, come on in anyway, I'm sure they'll call soon.??I couldn't call you as I don?t have your number, Sam.??Wouldn't have done you any good. I've lost my phone, had to report itso it?s been blocked. Relying on emails at the moment. It's nice not tohave to worry about it. I?ll leave it til I get back to Bangkok toreplace it.?I followed Sam into the cabin, still not sure what to say. Sam producedbeers and we sat down around the table. Sam sipped her beer and said,?I've been on board all day, trying to catch up on some work.?That was a lie, I thought. If Nin was right, Sam had been in townearlier on.?That's rough, working while you're on holiday. I see the company hasn'tchanged that much then.?She laughed, ?No, you're right, they still want their pound of flesh.How's the new business going???OK, I'm getting the business systems sorted first, getting them out ofthe way first. It's straightforward, so shouldn't take long.? I had theglimmer of an idea.I asked Sam, ?Is there anyone left at the company who I would stillknow??Sam thought and then shook her head, ?I don't think so. They had apretty good clear out, why? Is there anything I can do???No, I doubt it, it's just something about the pirate attack which hasnagged away at me. Don't worry, I'll give John a call sometime.??John? I don't remember a John.??John Nichols, part of the back office team, before it got disbanded.Probably left before you arrived. Gave me the heads up about something.He had heard there was a rumour someone in the company was spreadinggossip about me. Probably nothing to it all, I always think it's morecockup than conspiracy. It will keep. As I was here, I thought I wouldask.?I thought Sam looked a bit edgy, she wouldn't keep eye contact with me.My phone bleeped and seeing it was Areeya, I answered. ?James, where are you? I found Alex, she's upset but alright. We'reheading back to the apartment.??That's great, Areeya. I'm on the boat with Sam. I thought you mighthave headed here.??No, I went after Alex. Can you tell Sam I will stay here with Alex,I'll see her in the morning.??Will do, Areeya, I'll see you shortly.? She rang off.?Sam, there's been a bit of a crisis, that's why I couldn't reach them.Areeya said she would stay at the apartment tonight and see you tomorrowmorning. Anyway, mystery solved. I'll shoot off now, Sam. I'll see youtomorrow, shall I???I think Areeya was planning to take the boat out tomorrow, she promisedto take me to a reef on the other side of the island. I think we?ll staythe night there and be back the day after. It's my last chance before Igo back to Bangkok. Send my love to both of them will you???Will do, Sam. Goodnight and have a great trip.?We kissed and I walked off the boat, slipped on my shoes and headed downthe pier. As I reached the end by the beach, I ducked into the darknessbehind a wall and waited. It was probably only 15 minutes later when Iheard footsteps coming down the pier. Sam walked past me and straightinto town. I let her get out of sight as I was sure I knew where she washeaded. I trailed some way behind her as I didn't want to let her seeme. Reaching the hotel Nin had mentioned, I found a spot opposite thehotel, where I could keep watch unobserved. I could only think thislittle late night trip was because of what I?d said about ?John? and theleaks.Sure enough, a few minutes later I saw Sam and Tony through the windowof the bar in what looked like animated conversation. They seemed to bearguing angrily with each other and Sam was waving her arms and shoutingat him. He looked at one point if he was going to hit her until shegrabbed his arm and stopped him. I took out my iPhone and took a fewphotos of the two of them through the window. They wouldn't win anyprizes but at least you could recognise the two of them clearly enough.I thought about getting closer to hear what they were arguing about, butI would risk being spotted and I didn't want that at this stage. Ithought I had enough evidence, so I backed away into the shadow andheaded back to the apartment. When I arrived, Alex and Areeya were out on the balcony. Alex wassitting on a chair with her arms wrapped around her legs, staring outinto the darkness. Areeya was on another chair and raised her eyebrowsto me as I came over to where they were sitting.?Hi Alex, how are you? I was worried about you when you ran off.? I satdown next to her.?Nobody has to worry about me, I'm fine on my own.??Where did you go???I went looking for that little prick of a journalist.??But you didn't find him???Not yet, but when I do, I will break all his fingers, so he can't writeany more filth and ruin any more people?s lives.?I believe she would have done it if she could.?What would you do if I told you I know where he is??Both Alex and Areeya turned to stare at me. ?Where is he then?? said Alex, quietly.?I'm not going to tell you.? I started to say. Alex leapt up andclenched her fists, ?Tell me now.??I'm not going to tell you, because I don?t want you running off to belthim. I have a far better plan.??What is it?? she said, ?because if it doesn't involve breaking hisfingers I'm not interested.?Areeya, silent up to now, said, ?Alex, please sit down and let Jamesexplain his idea to us. Please??Alex did sit down but I could tell the red mist was still in her eyes. Iwaited for a few seconds to see if she would calm down a little more,but she wasn't, so I shared the plan which had been fermenting in mymind on the way back from the hotel. When I finished, Areeya was thefirst to speak, ?Yes, James, I think it would work. I would need tospeak to my father, but I am sure he would be happy to play his part.?Alex was still quiet, but I hoped she would accept the plan. She lookedat me and said, ?You're smarter than you look, you know.??Thanks, I think.? I said. She jumped up off the chair and came and saton my lap, her mood almost miraculously changed.?I'm still mad that I can't break his fingers, but I will just have totake that out on you tonight, baby.?She kissed me and her tongue snaked into my mouth. She started to grindher bum around on my lap and my cock decided it was time to wake up.Areeya, said, ?I'll leave you two to do whatever you want, I'm headingoff to bed.?Alex pouted, ?Aww, please come give me a goodnight kiss then.?Areeya walked across and Alex pulled her down and kissed her hard on thelips right in front of my face. I could see Alex?s tongue trying to openup Areeya?s lips who gave a little moan before pulling away.?You are such a bad girl, Alex. I am going to bed now, see you both inthe morning.?Alex giggled as Areeya kissed me before disappearing into the apartment.?Where did you get to? I was worried about you.?Alex put her arms around my neck and her head against my chest. ?I'msorry, I was so angry that I couldn't get my hands on the little creepI. wanted to sort my head out. There's a place out by the beach where Ilike to go to if I'm worried about something. It's quiet and secluded, Ican sit there, day or night, and it helps me sort things out in my mind.Areeya knows about it, so she came to find me, hugged me and just talkedto me. She is so good at calming me down when I get into a mood. Shenever gets angry, never lets things get to her. She?s the most unselfishperson I have ever met.?That made me think of what the truth about Sam would do to Areeya. Ithought I would keep it to myself for a little longer, and hoped I couldcome up with some idea of what to do. Alex and I sat, holding each other and enjoying the cool breeze whichhad spring up. She had her head on my chest and I rubbed her back whichI knew she loved. I thought she was about to go to sleep when she sat upand looked me in the eyes, ?Did you enjoy Nana Plaza???What?? I squeaked, she had taken me completely off guard.?When you went to Bangkok after we fought, did you enjoy Nana Plaza???How did you know I went to Nana Plaza???Areeya called her father after you left and he had you followed whenyou arrived. He told her all about your visit to the bars in Nana Plazaand your time with, who was it? Bell and Ting? Did you enjoy it??I was now blushing furiously and had no option but to confess.?I?m sorry. To be honest, I can't remember exactly what happened, I wasso off my head that night. I was angry and jealous, and I was trying, insome mad way, to get revenge for what I thought you had done. I amashamed to say it and it sounds so puerile now. I was so totally fuckedup with booze and self loathing that night, I lost sight of what wastruly important. It wasn't my finest moment and I feel so embarrassedabout how I behaved. So, no I didn't enjoy it. It did do something,though.??What's that???It convinced me I had been a colossal fool and that I needed to win youback at all costs, because I loved you.?She was still looking in my eyes, trying to work out if I was tellingthe truth.?Would you have told me about it??I thought for a moment, ?Probably, but only with my last breath on mydeath bed.?She laughed, ?You think we?ll be together that long???I hope we both live to be 100, Alex.?She smiled and said, ?Me too, baby, me too. Please don't run off again,I really couldn't take it again.??I won?t, I promise.??OK, in that case I forgive you, but mark my words, no more fuckinganybody other than me or Areeya unless I say so, is that clear???How about Pao?? I meant it as a joke, but Alex grabbed my nipplethrough my t-shirt and twisted, ?Oww, that hurt.??Good, I told you I would make up for you not letting me break thatguy?s fingers. Your cock belongs to Areeya and me. If you want to use itanywhere else you have to get our permission, is that clear? Rememberthat little cock cage I showed you???OK, OK, I agree.? Frankly, restricting my sexual activity to Alex andAreeya wasn't exactly a hardship.?So you want to get it on with Pao again, do you?? She was smiling now.?That's not what I said, but she is very sweet.? I batted her hand awayas she tried another assault on my nipple.She grinned and said, ?Yes she is, and I may have to reward her with asession with you. She is in love with you, you know. But tonight, you?remine, you bad boy. Come with me, mummy needs to punish you.?Alex stood up, took my hand and pulled me through into the apartment. Wegot to the middle of the room and she stopped, turned round to face meand let go of my hand. ?Unzip my dress, James.?She turned her back to me and held her hair up so the zip was visible. Itook hold of the top of the zip and began to pull downwards.?Slowly, James.?I did as she asked and slowly pulled the zip down to the bottom. Sheshook her hips, the dress fell to the floor and she stepped out of it,revealing a white bra and knickers. She looked back over her shoulder atme and said, ?Undo my bra, James.?I stepped forward and unhooked the bra and she shrugged the straps offher shoulders and the bra and let it fall to the floor. Turning to faceme, she kept her hands over her breasts and I could see her cock waspeeking over the top of her knickers. My head began to spin and my mouthfelt dry as I imagined what was to come. Alex dropped her hands from herbreasts and said, ?I'm in control tonight, do you understand??I nodded, not trusting my voice to speak. ?That's good, baby.? She whispered. I knew all along I would have to do penance for what had happened afterI left her and went to Bangkok, and it seemed like I was about to findout what the penalty would be. She reached out with one hand, stroked mycheek with her fingers and then gave me a little slap. It didn't hurtbut the shock of it was enough to make me say, ?Oww.?She bent her head forward and kissed me, her tongue forcing it's wayinto my mouth as her hand started to rub my cock through my thin shorts.I responded immediately and began to grow hard as she continued tofondle and kiss me. She broke the kiss and walked behind me, her fingersstroking my face and caressing my lips as she did so. I began to turn tofollow her and I got a sharp slap on my bum.?Face the front. Don't move until mummy tells you to.?I felt her move close behind me, her breasts pushing against my back andI could feel her hard cock jutting between the cheeks of my bum. Herhair brushed against my neck and the velvety feel of her tongue as shekissed and licked my neck. Her hands came round and she pushed them upunder my t-shirt and began tweaking and pinching my nipples. Theyhardened immediately as she rolled and stretched the nubs between herfingers and dug her nails into them as well. I heard myself groan, and Iclosed my eyes as she continued to attack my increasingly sensitivenipples. She began pushing her cock harder against me and I could feel myselfresponding in kind. I groaned again and my back arched with pleasure asshe continued her assault on my tortured nipples. They were now painful,but it was such a sensuous thrill that I wanted it to go on forever. Shesuddenly raised her hands, pushed off my T-shirt and flung it into acorner of the room. She dragged her nails across my bare chest and Icould feel the sting as they broke the skin. The pain was exquisite andit made me arch my back again as she dragged them once more across mytorso. She put one hand across my face and pulled my head back as she pushedthe other hand down the front of my shorts and found my hard cock. Herfingers rolled around it, stroking up and down the length before diggingher nails into the head. I winced, the pain mingling with that from mynipples. I felt her fingers roll my balls together and she squeezed,making me stagger and almost lose my balance. She had stopped kissing myneck but now she started again, licking and kissing before nipping myearlobe hard between her teeth. I felt a sharp pain, but as with thesensations from my nipples and my groin, it was exciting me; somewherethe pain had become pleasure and was turning me on. I had my eyes closedand was becoming highly aroused. Alex suddenly pulled down my shorts andI stood naked, uncertain of what she had planned next.I felt a stinging pain and realised she had slapped the right cheek ofmy bum followed by another as she did it again. Her nails raked my backthis time and I staggered slightly forwards. Alex used this to push metowards the wall of the room and I had to put my hands out to stopmyself falling over, leaving me spread eagled against the wall. She heldme in that position and thrust one leg in between mine and pushed themapart. I was now immobile, legs splayed and having to lean against thewall for balance. I got another sharp slap on each cheek, and shereached between my legs and squeezed my balls again, hard enough for meto moan with the pain. Even so, I felt my cock get even harder with thetreatment.?Have you been a bad boy?? she hissed into my ear. ?Have you, James?Have you been a bad boy, putting that cock which belongs to me somewhereit shouldn't have been??I nodded and she squeezed my balls once more.?Promise me you won't do it again.??I promise, I promise.??Good boy, James, I will hold you to that promise.?She caressed my back with her fingertips this time and the softness ofher touch after the raking from her nails almost made me climax. I felther move between my legs and she ran her fingers gently across my bumcheeks which were burning slightly from the previous slaps. The sheslapped me hard on each cheek one more time and I bucked forwardsallowing her to move closer between my legs. She pushed a finger into mymouth and I sucked on it as I guessed she intended. She let me cover itwith saliva and pulled it out with a small plop. She reached down and Ifelt her finger circle the edge of my hole. She pushed it in and kepther hand on my back so all I could do was make a sound in my throat asher finger slipped in and out of my hole. I felt her push in a secondfinger and she began to finger fuck me, gently at first and then harderas she opened me up. She withdrew her fingers and in an instant I felt her cock tapping at myentrance. Spreadeagled against the wall there was nothing I could do tostop her, but by this time I was desperate to feel her inside me. I feltthis was my punishment for what I had so stupidly done in Bangkok and Ideserved this as part of the price of forgiveness. I felt something wetfall onto my hole and I realised that Alex was using her saliva tolubricate me. I heard her spit once more and felt her spread it ontoher cockhead. I involuntarily tensed as she began to push her cock headinto me. ?Push back, baby, or it will really hurt.?I tried to do as she said, but there was a burning pain as he pushed hercock past my muscle and then with a grunt she was inside. It hurt morethan any other time she had fucked me and I was groaning loudly as sheslammed into me. I can't remember exactly when but at some point thepain faded and instead a red hot surge of pleasure overcame me. I wasnow pushing back as her cock rammed into me and I could hear hergrunting as her balls slapped against me. She slapped me again on thebum, and then once more, but that simply escalated the levels of ecstasyI was feeling. I could feel her cock getting even harder and she wasnow almost pushing me off my feet as she pounded into me. She reached upand grabbed my hair, pulling my head backwards as she accelerated herthrusts, trying to reach her climax. I could feel she was getting closeand I pushed back as hard as I could, even though I was burning inside.She grunted once and I felt her come deep inside me, her cum pouringinto me. I was now convulsing as I came almost at the same time as shedid. My cum flooding from my rigid cock without it being touched at all.Alex pumped once or twice more to drive all her juices into me, andthrough the haze of all my passion and pain and pleasure I thought Iheard her whisper something that sounded like, ?You're my bitch now.?Alex pulled out of me and I felt empty when her cock was gone. I felt soshattered that I couldn't even stand up and remained leaning against thewall. Alex put my arm around my shoulder and led me across to thewetroom, turned on the water and gently washed and cleaned me up. Shedidn't speak, giving me time to think about what had just happened. Alexhad not hurt me; nothing she had done had caused me real pain and I hadnever had any inclination for S